I am going through the most confused phases of my life. The only philosophy that I have taken seriously ever was 'go with the flow.' My folks insist either I study or I get married. Study - did biotechnolody but joined Advertising to avoid phd. Now imagine myself doing phd and working for the UN as consider self to be featuring on Oprah as the evanlegist making waves in the war torn middle east. Marriage-again my natural instinct is not to the trust the system. Advocator of feminism but believe in the Rhett Butler/Darcy/Heathcliffe/all three of them to sweep me off my feet. My favourite topics that I can passionately discuss are Marxicism, Greek lieterature, Hitler, Gandhi Osho and Dilbertism but cannot prevent myself getting engrossed over John Bipasha relationship status. Have pushed myself getting intersted in TV channels like Discovery, NDTV profit but always end up watching the re-runs of the OC. Will be caught dead in pink UCB attire but have longingly looked at the manniquins outside the malls with the season's collection and ending up sulking over a cheese cake. Consider self a responsible mature woman of the world but cannot avoid indulging in licking my fingers in a restaurant or enid blytons or the american teenage sitcoms which makes you giddy with the sugar.
Deep down, am convinced that there is something that I will never take seriously and that is life. What if I refuse to believe that there is a purpose to every life and convince self that the only purpose is to live life and indulge in every fancy without giving an explanation.